Monday, October 20, 2008

One more day

I got off the phone with the adoption agency this afternoon and burst into tears. I thought we were nearing the end of the adoption process, but in fact, we had a lot more to do.

Papers to notarize, birth certificates to copy, more background checks to send in.

I was overwhelmed.

And a little sleep deprived.

So I cried.

It was a necessary cry.

Tonight Ryan and I spent well over an hour filling out paperwork. A lot of paperwork. Tomorrow we'll go to the adoption agency to go through it all to make sure we have everything accounted for.

We are tired of paperwork, tired of signing our names over and over, tired of writing our address, our date of birth.....

Adoption is not an easy process. In fact, it is long and tiring. And emotionally draining.

Which is what led to the tears. And the arguments.

I can't imagine how much more difficult this would be if we didn't have a beautiful baby sleeping in the room next to us.

I can't fathom calling, faxing, signing, requesting, mailing, and copying if I didn't already know why I was doing each of those things.

But I know. And I am so very thankful.

And I'd sign papers every day for the rest of my life if it meant one more day with Samuel.

I was a little short my both of my boys today. I'm hoping they'll forgive a tired and overwhelmed wife and mom.

I love my boys!

1 comment:

The FCVW family said...

Hi -this is Caroline Vander Woude from Chandler writing.Your dad called Loren last night and told him about your new addition and also gave us your blog so we could read it from the beginning to now!!! What a blessing !!!!Sounds like you are so ready to be parents and Christian parents at that---that little boy must feel the love you have for him already.As i was reading this blog going from day 1 to now it brought tears to my eyes as to how God worked this plan into your lives.May He continue to bless you and your little one is our prayer. We have such fond memories of your family living in Chandler and our kids going to lost timber tubbing!!! They were forever blowing up tubes!!!! Where has the time gone? Take care-Frank and Caroline