I cannot sleep.
It is 3:01 a.m. and sleep will not come.
I am overflowing with joy and so thankful for God's goodness. Another miracle has just entered the world and no shut eye will come for me.
One of my dearest friends just gave birth to a sweet baby girl at 2:19 a.m. I layed in bed. I prayed. I thanked God.
Then I got up. Why lay there when you can blog and get all these thoughts out of your head?
I thought back to the summer of '06 when K and I were sitting on the dock at her in-laws cabin. Just two weeks after we lost our first baby she gently encouraged me to talk and asked just the right questions.
She prayed for me month after month.
Then 11 months later she lost her first baby to a miscarriage.
Then 7 months later she lost her second baby to a miscarriage.
Together we questioned, wondered, pleaded with God, sat together in our auditorium at church and cried.
Then last summer she told me she was expecting again. But she was mad at God because she had prayed that I would have a baby before her.
Even as a mom-to-be she helped me deal with all the bitterness, anger and resentment in my heart toward pregnant women and toward my situation in general (that's a separate posting!). And my heart experienced great healing as a result of her prayers and encouragement.
And then I got pregnant. And we all rejoiced together. Then we mourned together.
And then God answered K's prayer and gave me a baby before her - Samuel!
And this morning my heart is so full. Because I am reminded that God is faithful. I am reminded that His timing is always perfect. I am reminded that each life is so precious. I am reminded of the GIFT of friendship. I am reminded of the power of prayer.
Oh Samuel, you have a new little friend who will live just 8 blocks from us.
Oh world, baby girl B has arrived and you better watch out.
Oh Jesus, thank you for another miracle.