Right now I should be getting ready for our big day but I just couldn't let this moment go by without writing you a note. My heart is so full at this very moment that the tears are just waiting to pour out. I keep stuffing them down but it might be better if I just cried now so we're good to go for later.
This morning you slept until almost 8 a.m. (it was so beautiful!). I rocked you in your nursery as I fed you your bottle and prayed over you and thanked God for your precious life. I asked His blessing on today and thanked Him that it is finally here. I also thanked God for your birth mom and that she chose life Samuel. I thanked Him that Samantha chose to give us the gift of you. And that's what you are - a gift from the Lord.
I gave you a bath to make sure you're clean for your celebration today. Of course, you peed as soon as I put you in the water and again as soon as I cleaned you all off at the end. It just made me laugh. As I washed you I thanked God for your perfect little body - so healthy and full of life. From the tips of your toes to the top of bald little head you are perfect.
How am I so blessed Samuel? How do I have the privilege of being your mom? I am madly in love with you my little man. The last four months have been wonderful, challenging, so tiring and incredibly fulfilling.
I have said it before and today it's worth repeating: it doesn't matter one ounce to me that you did not grow in my womb. In my eyes you are flesh of my flesh and bone of my bone. There is a saying for adopted babies that says you didn't grow under my heart but in it. Oh sweet Samuel. You grew in my heart for years. I didn't know it was you, but moment by moment, month by month you grew, until in the Lord's perfect timing, we got to hold you in our arms.
Today Samuel you will legally become our son. You are already our son in our hearts, but it will be good to have it on paper and on your birth certificate.
And today I couldn't be more grateful to be your mom. I couldn't be any happier than I am at this moment. I couldn't be any more joyous than I am today for the blessing of raising you as our son.
Are you ready little man?
It's almost time.
Lets go tell the world that you're ours.