A few months ago I discovered a web site called Sarah's Laughter for Christian Support for Infertility & Child Loss. They send out a daily e-mail with encouraging words and inspiring thoughts for those on the journey of infertility.
Although my infertility journey SEEMS to have come to an end, the words often challenge and encourage me and I'm amazed at how the writers relate Scripture to current day. As a writer, I love to read well-written and thought-provoking material. The following is one of those e-mails and I wanted to share a portion of it. Whether infertility is your 'burden' or you have another issue or concern you are facing, these are powerful words:
Your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
"I love a good book, and have always loved to read. But no mushy love stories for me. I’m a sci-fi geek! Give me a book about time travel or spacial anomalies and I’m happy! I also love spy novels. I read the “Jason Bourne” series when I was just a teenager. It is still one of my favorite book series to this day. When I get into a good book, it’s hard to focus on anything else. I get completely caught up in the story and find myself wondering what will happen next. Will Capt. Kirk ever be brought back into temporal sync with the rest of his crew? Will Jason Bourne ever figure out who he really is? Part of the fun of reading is not knowing how the story will end.
Our lives are a book, and not knowing what will happen next can be pretty frightening. But, God has written our story before he even formed us. And like it or not, there is a chapter in our books called “Infertility”. There may be a chapter in your book called “Miscarriage”. Why would God write such chapters, especially in the books of men and women who love and serve Him? I can’t answer that. But we can take comfort in knowing that God is good and perfect, and if He wrote it, then He is working out these things for our good and His glory."
Before you were even formed in your mother's womb, every chapter of your life was already written. Your days, which make up your story and ultimately your 'book,' were written before your first day of life ever came to be.
Does it encourage you to know that your book is already written? Or is it frustrating? Does it remind you that you are not in control? Does it calm your heart to know that you are NOT the one writing your story?
The author goes on to say, "Although the chapters are written, I don’t think that our responses are."
Friends, you know from my blog postings that I believe that God is the one who is writing our story. How could I not believe that? I could have never written a story this crazy...this painful...this joyous...this full of lessons, love and laughter. Psalm 139 confirms that belief for me.
May it bring every one of us deep peace to give up control of our days, our chapters and our story. If you or someone you love is struggling with [insert any issue here], take heart in knowing that this chapter of life is already written.
But, your response to this chapter is completely open-ended. My hope and prayer is that faithfulness, trust and a steadfast mind are continual themes in my book of life.
We don't know the ending to this chapter, we don't know the ending to our book, but our response says much about our relationship with the author of our story.