Sunday, April 26, 2009

Baby Oliver

Today I held a sweet little peanut named Oliver. He is the brand new son of my dear friend Molly.

When I think of Molly and her baby boy, I can't help but think back to the journey Molly has been on with me....she has walked beside me, shed so many tears for me, prayed so many prayers for me and dealt so gracefully with my losses during her times of celebration.

Just one month after my first miscarriage Ryan and I met Molly and her husband Josh for dinner in August 2006. With tears in her eyes she told me she was expecting. I could tell it was so hard on her to share this news in the midst of my pain. I know she wanted to share the details of her pregnancy with me in the following months as I grieved my loss and waited month after month to conceive again, but she was so sensitive with my heart.

Beautiful Sophia was born and I've watched her grow for two years.

Last August, on the same day I told Molly we were finally pregnant again she told me she too was expecting. What fun - we could share our pregnancies together! We were due just 10 days apart. She prayed her heart out for the health of our baby and asked God if one of our babies wouldn't be healthy that it would be hers so Ryan and I could have a baby.

The day I had my first ultrasound and heard a heartbeat she rejoiced with me and cried many happy tears. On the day we found out our baby had died, she left me a message and I could just hear her sobs on my voicemail. Her tender heart felt my pain and was broken over our loss.

Once again, during what should have been a time of sweet celebration and rejoicing over the new life inside of her womb, Molly walked beside me grieving along with me, crying beside me and listening to my questions. And she let God have it a time or two.

It was my dear friend Molly who I gave the sad task of erasing all the weeks off my calendar of what would have been by upcoming pregnancy. I just couldn't bear to do that again. With tears in her eyes she took the pencil and one by one erased week after week.

Both her pregnancies have been marked by my miscarriages. I am so sorry for the timing in that.

But today I rejoice with her in the birth of her son. In the miracle of his life and in the perfect timing God has for her family. I am grateful for the gift of her friendship and the tenderness of her heart. I am in awe of her prayers that sustained me through my darkest hours.

Congratulations my dear friend. I love you.


This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

Congratulations to Molly, and welcome baby Oliver!!

Grace in my Heart said...

Welcome baby Oliver!

What a blessing to have such a dear friend!

Rachel said...

You have a fun! I stumbled across this and suddenly realized I actually knew you in real life. I keep a blog too:

We'll miss you at library time this week, but will hope to see you next week.

The Mac's House said...

You are incredibly blessed to have such a warm wonderful friend.

There will be many tears of joy soon for both of you as you welcome your new baby into the world.

Welcome to baby Oliver, what a day for celebration.

Kathryn said...

I appreciate you so much, & have enjoyed following your blog. It is so special to hear of the work God is doing in your family. I've just tagged you at my blog for the "Attitude of Gratitude" award.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful story of love and friendship. So happy to hear about the healthy birth of her baby. With great joy there is also great sorrow. I am thinking of the baby you lost that "should have been" Oliver's buddy. Praying for you as you may still be mourning the loss of that baby...a mother never forgets that kind of heartache. What a joy it will be to reunite with that soul in heaven some day! Thanks for sharing your story.

TAE said...

What kind words you said about your friend (Molly) who also happens to be my daughter in law. You and Molly are special friends and sisters in Christ. You have been together since you were young. We have so much appreciated getting to know you, Ryan, and Samuel through Josh and Molly. It is amazing how God blesses us with wonderful relationships..