Sunday, May 3, 2009

Life inside

It's 8:45 p.m. on Sunday night and I am sitting alone in my big king-size bed crying my eyes out. My little man is asleep. My hubby is on the East Coast all week for work.

It's just me...and my tears...and the second greatest miracle I've ever experienced moving around inside of me.

That's what led to the tears. I'm on my lap top and quite unexpectedly I see my belly move. I have felt my little girl move for a little over a week but haven't actually seen my belly move. And I can't believe that it did tonight. It seems so early still.

But my belly moved. Three times. And I just started sobbing. And I don't know why.

Maybe I'm crying because I still can't believe this is happening.

Maybe I'm crying because a kick means my baby is actually healthy.

Maybe I'm crying because I feel so undeserving of this incredible blessing.

Maybe I'm crying cuz I'm tired and hormonal.

But regardless. My tummy moved. There is life inside. And my tears say so much more than my words ever could. Thank you Jesus.

5 comments:

Kathryn said...

What a wonderful blessing for you. God's miracle of life is certainly amazing, & that is enough to cry for the joy of it.

May you continue to be blessed in the days coming.

Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you Stacy. God has given you the opportunity to experience both adoption and birth. You couldn't ask for more. I'm so happy you get to experience the latter too. It's so amazing and it's another way God shows how amazing he is. What a great and awesome God we serve. Take care!
Megan

G & H said...

OMG I am so in awes of your story! I thank God for you finding out blog...I need and am able to follow adoption blogs so much because its a lonely journey and finding blogs like yours and other helps!

Do you mind emailing me and maybe I can ask you some questions about your journey ...Nothing had just how you got the word out ...I read your story and its so beautiful and amazing! GOD IS SO GOOD!

And congrats on your little one inside you too!!!!

Life In Mazes said...

I bet it so nice to be crying tears of wonder, awe, and joy! Did it take you awhile to feel any pregnancy symptoms? Just wondering?

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

Wow!! Just. Wow.

:)