Monday, June 29, 2009

Happy tears

This morning I contacted an infertility support group whom I get daily e-mail devotionals from to ask about their team of writers. I am so impressed by the quality of their devotionals and was curious about who writes them. I thanked them for their insight and wisdom and let them know that I am continually touched by their words even though I am no longer walking the road of infertility.

I signed my e-mail
"Mother of adopted son and baby girl on the way,"

And as soon as I typed the words, I burst into tears.

Literally, burst into a sobbing mess of tears.

Now I could attribute those tears to a number of things:
1. I'm sick with a cold (again!), therefore not feeling well and emotions are high
2. I'm pregnant so my hormones are crazy
3. I'm tired and when I'm tired I cry easily

But I don't attribute my tears to any of those three things. Because, to be honest, this happens frequently. When I write to someone explaining the story of Samuel or recall the moment Samantha told us we could adopt her son or when I think about my current state of parenthood (and our many blessings) it often leads me to tears.

It's like this big jumble of feelings well up and I can't help but cry. It always amazes me too. I'm eating my breakfast, writing an e-mail and the next things I know: can't swallow, big lump in throat, tears.

I wonder for how long this surprising burst of emotions will occur? I hope forever. I don't want this awe and amazement to ever end. Even if it makes me cry.

Posted by Stacy
www.samuelmay.com

2 comments:

Flakymn said...

I'm still amazed. Everyday. At your story and mine as your story really IS mine ...

Charnè said...

Can i ask what daily devotional you subscribe to? would love to find a good one

can you email me the details
charne@mailbox.co.za

thanks