This is an e-mail sent to me in December 2007 by my mother-in-law. I often talked about Waiting Well with her and encouraging others to do so. She sent me this e-mail and it so touched my heart. I came across it the other day. I am not posting it as a way to say "look at how well I waited," but rather to encourage all of you who are in a waiting season of life to strive to wait well and make the most of your time of waiting...
My Dear Stacy,
I see you waiting across the room, everyone is congratulating your friend who just announced that she is pregnant. I see you smile and busy yourself.
I see you hold the newborns and lovingly coo and rock them.
I see you proudly show off photos of your best friend’s baby girl.
I see the delight in your face as you meet your husband’s cousin’s baby for the first time
I heard that you helped your friend make her birth announcements.
I know you traveled miles to visit your new nephew and congratulate your brother and his wife…many times!
I know you are a great support to a friend who had to give up her 2 foster children.
I know you spent a weekend with a friend and her new baby to help her out.
I know you have cried along side others who have lost their babies
I know you have written notes and cards
I know you have shared on the ‘blog’ to moms who benefited from your encouragement…even when you needed the encouragement.
I know you have stood by the grave of a new born and cried as if it was your own.
I know you have felt pain, anger, lost, confusion, disappointment and sadness.
I know…that I don’t know…
But I know you are waiting…
and I know you are ‘Waiting Well’.
You couldn’t be doing all these things that I know about or have seen in you if you weren’t ‘waiting well.’ You are “numbering your days aright, you are gaining a heart of wisdom.”
Don’t discount that you are also ‘living’ as you are waiting and because of that you are making an impact on others. You are not avoiding the pain or ignoring the loss, you are acknowledging the fact that God is in control every time you reach out and help a new mom. Every time you put your pain aside and rejoice with another’s happiness, you are loving one another as Christ loves you.
You are living and I am so proud of you. You are present in the moment…waiting, hurting, wishing, but you are present and that is what life is all about. Being present in the moment and living for others. You are of great worth.
I am waiting, too. I am waiting to see what God has in mind for both you and Ryan. Your maturity and love for one another is so rare these days. I can only think that even God is waiting to see just how He will best make the most of you and Ryan…a couple that loves each other and is committed to walking a journey that is so painful.
I love you,