Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Sur.vi.val

Survival: the act or process of surviving, esp. under adverse or unusual circumstances.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she affirmed what I was already thinking: I am in survival mode.

Right now the goal for each day is just to survive. Health, happiness, rest, routine...it will all return someday, but today if we are alive at the end of the day my goal is accomplished. That is life with a newborn. That is life when you don't sleep through the night. That is life with two children 11 months apart. That is life when half the family is sick.

So it seems we're doing whatever is necessary just to survive.

Poor Samuel is just getting over a cold and his little body is worn out and tired.


I've hit the 6-week wall (is there such a thing?). Six weeks of little sleep and lots of activity has caught up with me - along with Samuel's germs - and I am battling a cold.

The question I've been pondering for the past 24 hours is: who takes care of 'mom' when mom is sick and dad is at work?

I haven't showered today. I haven't even brushed my teeth. I ate breakfast at 10 and lunch at 2:15. I slept for 15 minutes on the couch this morning and woke up drooling (how tired do you have to be to fall into a deep enough sleep to drool in 15 minutes?).

I'm not writing this to get sympathy. I'm just communicating the current status of the May household.

Someday soon we will be thriving again. But today, we're just surviving.

4 comments:

Sew said...

Dominos Pizza!!!! hahahahaha

Love this post!!!!!!

Flakymn said...

I definitely felt this way with my 8.5 month apart boys. I felt like I was in survival for about the first six months but really for the first three. I can honestly say that now, I have found a groove. The groove changes but it is there. Hang in there! You'll be coming out on the other side soon.

Stacey said...

Saying a special prayer for you tonight, Stacy. Hope you will all be healthy and rested as soon as possible!

Ann said...

I'm with you! I felt the exact same way and it makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one. It's really hard to be a mom.