Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Blocks, sleeper, hope
I love these ABC blocks from Pottery Barn Kids.
And I love the pink sleeper below on my little girl.
What do these two things have in common?
They were my tangible items of H O P E during some of my darkest days.
When I had my first miscarriage in the summer of '06, I was part of a group called Homemakers With Hope. This wonderful group of women went together and purchased these blocks for me as a gift when I lost my first baby (my friend had these and I just loved them!).
They were a beautiful reminder to me as I H O P E D that one day I would have children who could play with these blocks.
I moved the blocks from one home to another. I packed them and unpacked them. Sometimes I saw them and they made my heart hurt as I longed and waited for my miracle. But they also represented H O P E.
Here's a picture of my sweet pea in a sleeper. The day I put this outfit on her was a special one.
I've had this sleeper for three years. I bought some kids' clothes when we went to Chicago to visit Ryan's cousins in the fall of '06.
I bought some clothes for gifts and some for me since I was anxiously waiting to get pregnant again.
I put this sleeper in my 'gift box' along with the other items I had purchased, but every time I went to pull something out for a gift, I couldn't part with this sleeper.
What kept me from giving it away? H O P E. I just kept hanging onto it, H O P I N G that one day I might have a little girl who could wear it. H O P I N G that I might have a baby. H O P I N G I might be blessed with a daughter.
A pink sleeper in a cardboard box. Wooden ABC blocks. H O P E.