Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Blocks, sleeper, hope




















I love these ABC blocks from Pottery Barn Kids.


And I love the pink sleeper below on my little girl.

What do these two things have in common?

They were my tangible items of H O P E during some of my darkest days.

When I had my first miscarriage in the summer of '06, I was part of a group called Homemakers With Hope. This wonderful group of women went together and purchased these blocks for me as a gift when I lost my first baby (my friend had these and I just loved them!).

They were a beautiful reminder to me as I H O P E D that one day I would have children who could play with these blocks.

I moved the blocks from one home to another. I packed them and unpacked them. Sometimes I saw them and they made my heart hurt as I longed and waited for my miracle. But they also represented H O P E.


Here's a picture of my sweet pea in a sleeper. The day I put this outfit on her was a special one.

I've had this sleeper for three years. I bought some kids' clothes when we went to Chicago to visit Ryan's cousins in the fall of '06.

I bought some clothes for gifts and some for me since I
was anxiously waiting to get pregnant again.

I put this sleeper in my 'gift box' along with the other items I had purchased, but every time I went to pull something out for a gift, I couldn't part with this sleeper.

What kept me from giving it away? H O P E.
I just kept hanging onto it, H O P I N G that one day I might have a little girl who could wear it. H O P I N G that I might have a baby. H O P I N G I might be blessed with a daughter.

A pink sleeper in a cardboard box. Wooden ABC blocks. H O P E.

4 comments:

Life In Mazes said...

beautiful.


I also have some baby items that are in my HOPE box.

Anxiously waiting for my arms to be filled.

Blessings to you and your growing family!

Becky said...

I too have had many things given to me over the past few years that are stored in a cardboard box that I hope to someday pull out of the closet and open it not to put something else in but to take them out and be able to use them!

God bless you and your beautiful family!

Ann - Building a Nest said...

Lovely.
I have a few things; not much, but some crib bedding and a few outfits. I have really been leaning towards giving them away as it's been painful to pack them up and move. But then I don't want it to seem like I'm giving up.

jayfersgirl said...

We tried for 2 years before getting pregnant with our sweet girl. I had 2 huge boxes of kids' books, and a tub full of clothes. We moved when I was 7 months pregnant, and had a horrible moving experience. At first, we thought half our belongings were lost forever -- there we were, no bed, no couch, no TV, etc. All I cared about were those books and clothes...the ones my precious baby would finally get to use after so many years of waiting.
When a 2nd truck showed up a week later, filled with our items (many of them broken and ruined), all I cared about was seeing those boxes come off that truck. I cried the first time my daughter wore a shirt that I had bought 3 years before...in hope that one day I would have a baby who would wear it.