Friday, December 18, 2009

The year I skipped Christmas

Last May I posted something I wrote titled "The Year I Skipped Mother's Day."

As I was driving today, I thought that this might be "The Year I Skipped Christmas."

We are one week out from Christmas.

I do not have a single Christmas decoration up in my home.

I have only bought three Christmas gifts for some of the little people in my life. Three. I have quite a few to go.

My Christmas cards are sitting on my dining room table waiting to be mailed. They are next to my birth announcements that only made it into the hands of about 10 people.

I made two Christmas treats a few weeks ago but want to make more (I love tasty Christmas treats!).

When I think about Christmas the part that excites me the most is that Ryan will be home from work for 12 days and I will get to sleep, sleep, sleep.

It seems I am living in a bit of a fog this holiday has gone by in a blur and will be here before I know it.

But as I think about the first Christmas, I am reminded:
there were no decorations
they did not send out Christmas cards (or baby announcements!)
there were no sweet treats to enjoy
the gifts presented were not ones purchased at a store

So this year, I might be skipping (or at least delaying) most of the 'usual' Christmas traditions. But instead I will do as another young mother did so many years ago...

"But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart." Luke 2:19

I commit today to stop feeling guilty for what I have not accomplished or am choosing not to do this year. Instead I will look at my two Christmas miracles, treasure their precious lives and daily ponder all that the Lord has blessed me with this year.


Anonymous said...

Just wait until your two little miracles are a little older. Then you can do those Christmas traditions WITH them and cherish every moment of it.

Anonymous said...

Is o.k to lay low when having two little ones to care for. People should undersgtand that you have your hands full.

Anonymous said...

You continue to amaze me with your awesome spirit through all the ups and downs of motherhood! Tonight at dinner, after reading the Children's advent story and prayer of the three Kings bearing gifts for Jesus, I asked my kids what sort of gift would Jesus Like this year from each of us? As we went around the table, my son was the first to speak. He said, "a TV"! I had to laugh!! It did open up a good conversation about what Christmas is really all about!! We talked about the non-material things we can do for each other that will please God. And that these gifts make Jesus more happy than anything money could buy!
If you are together as a family, loving and sharing with each other the joyous gift of Christ, the decorations just don't matter!! I hear you. I have been in a blur for the past 8 months since my twins were born! I crave sleep sound just like me!! You talk a lot about waiting. I know that God is asking me to be patient and wait right now. The house can't be in complete order, (the way I like it) I am exhausted beyond belief!! I could go on. But I know and trust that He has a plan and will get me through every stage of motherhood. I cannot do it alone...I need the grace of God! Sometimes I think I'll be waiting until they are off to college! But, then a blessing comes a long and my husband, Sam, and I are able to get away for a short weekend alone. God does come through to give us your husband being home for 12 days. That is wonderful!! Thanks for the uplifting thoughts. Your story is absolutely incredible by the way. I was in tears at many points reading some of your past posts. I have also lost a baby (at 9 weeks gestation) And got pregnant again VERY shortly afterwards with twins (by the grace of God & to our surprise)!!! We have two other children, 8 and 5years old. I am just begining to grieve the loss of the baby I lost. I got pregnant so soon and it was such a high risk ordeal that I really did not take the time to grieve, which is so very important to do. You are a wonderful advocate for mothers who are having infertility issues, going through loss of a child, being a new mom...your blog is well written and inspiring. I wish you and your family a very Merry Christmas...with or without all the decorations this year!
Jessica Groeller

Words/Wonder said...

The original baby announcement was a star.....

kim said...

absolutely beautiful.

Flakymn said...

I remember JB asking me what I wanted as a gift early after E. was born and I had the two under 10 months. I said, "A night in a hotel where all I do is sleep." I am totally with you.

If I were you, I would skip decorations, mail the letters at Valentines Day, and tell people their presents are coming late. Everyone will understand!