Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Miscarriage due dates

Today is one of those days.

Last year I forgot about this date.

Two years ago I was remembering what today represented.

And three years ago I would have been ecstatic to know there was even a due date on the horizon.

But today is 2011 and it's simply a tender reminder of the journey I'm on. It's one of those times that reminds me of the hard moments in this journey: sitting on my couch in the living room, a few friends or family members sitting with us, and asking my friend to erase the upcoming weeks I had written on my calendar to signify the progression of my pregnancy.

As I think about this date and the baby I never got to meet, I'm grateful for my son and daughter who ease my pain and heartache.

What hurts even more today than the reminder of my own loss, is the knowledge that many of you are experiencing the pain and grief that comes with miscarriage due dates. I know because you tell me so. You email me, FB me, comment on a post and tell me. And when you write I feel your pain. I hurt for you. I understand.

Because I have been there.

And when your womb is still empty on the due date - and for some of you, you've even experienced another miscarriage before your due date - your loss is magnified even more.

I wish I had words for each of you.

I wish I could hug you and walk with you and cry with you.

I can't, but I know the One who can. He would love to gently dry your tears, heal your hurt and fill your heart with hope. He's a big God and He too lost a son. He understands your pain. Cling to the promise of the One who walks this journey with you. Be filled with the knowledge that our God is one of compassion and comfort. He is the Prince of Peace. He is our strong tower and our refuge. He is abounding in love and He is sovereign over all. He is fighting the fight for you and He is on your side. When the world shakes around you, He is steadfast, He is our firm foundation and He promises to turn your mourning into joy.


JellyBelly said...

Praying for you!

A Martha trying to be Mary said...

This post is so very, very welcome today. Thank you so very much for posting. Its so beautiful.

My whole family is grieving right now since my brother and sister in law just had a miscarriage yesterday.

My parents have now lost 4 grandchildren to miscarriage and have only 2 living grandchildren.
Its so very hard to understand. Thanks for puting this here and sharing your story.