Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The dance of joy and sorrow

Rejoice with those who rejoice

Yesterday morning I prayed for a miracle.

Ryan's aunt was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in December. They have been managing her illness but found a spot on her liver last week. We were waiting for the results of the biopsy yesterday. If the spot was cancer that would mean the cancer had spread.

I prayed all morning and told God that I knew He was able. I knew He could move this mountain. I knew He was the great healer. I believed in Him and His power.

I also acknowledged that He might choose not to heal her, but I wanted Him to know that I believed He was able.

This is one of my favorite Beth Moore quotes:

"Please understand. Christ is fully God. He can heal anyone or perform any wonder, whether the belief of the person is great or small. Christ isn't asking us to believe in our ability to exercise unwavering faith. He is asking us to believe that He is able."

We got the call late morning that the spot was just an infection. It wasn't cancer.

God had heard our prayers and answered them! Her fight with cancer isn't over, but today we are rejoicing with Ryan's cousins and family members, in the good news they received. And we are giving God all the glory.

Mourn with those who mourn

While we are rejoicing about positive test results, my heart is aching for a friend of mine. If you recall this post from January, you know that my friend unexpectedly lost her husband after just 2 1/2 years of marriage. Today would have been their 3rd wedding anniversary.

My heart hurts desperately for the sadness and longing and sorrow she must feel as she grieves the loss of her husband, her marriage and the future she had planned with him.

What does one do on the day of their wedding anniversary when they are just 35 years old and has no spouse to kiss or hug or hold or celebrate with?

I know no words to share with her. I feel so inadequate to know what to do to bring comfort or encouragement to her heart.

All day I have been meditating on Isaiah 50:4 from my Jesus in 5 days devotion (the devotion included part two of this verse but part one is what God had in store for me today): The Sovereign Lord has given me a well-instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary.

I don't pretend to have a clue what word sustains the weary or the brokenhearted.

But God knows and I can ask Him to guide my tongue and my words, or to know when I just need to be silent.

This journey called life continues to amaze me.

The joy.

The sorrow.

The bitter and the sweet.

This journey is filled with trials and celebrations. It is full of joy that is immeasurably and heartache that is indescribable.

It is filled with tender times when we seek the solace of our Creator and He lovingly holds us close. It is filled with celebratory times when we raise our hands in praise and give Him all glory.

It's a sweet dance of joy and sorrow and it continues from our first breath to our last.


Langford Family Blog said...

We love you guys.....

Lisa Elliott said...

wow praise God Amen made me cry I have been doing that a lot when ever I read something it makes me cry love it I am praying for you all God Bless