Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Why did God say no?

Driving home from church on Sunday, my sweet boy says: "Why did God say no?"

Ryan and I look at each other.

"What are you talking about Samuel?" I ask.

"Why did God say no? When you were waiting for a baby. Why did God say no?"


Who is this kid?

He is three years old.

I am sure Ryan and I have told him that we waited for a long time for him and we probably said at some point that God told us no when we asked for a baby....but really? Where is this coming from?

For him to ask...that he remembers...that he wonders and questions...that he is pondering this in his heart? 

We were stunned. 

And speechless.

And tried to formulate some sort of response that he could understand:

"Samuel God said no to us when we wanted to have a baby because He was waiting to give us YOU. He said no Ryan and Stacy not yet. No, wait a little longer. Keep waiting. No. Not quite yet.

And then...when we got the call about you...God said, "YES! YES! YES! Go get him. Right now. This is what you've been waiting for!"

I can't help but think of all of you us, who are waiting. God is saying, "No. No. No. Not yet."

But one day you just might find God joyfully yelling, "Yes! Yes! Yes! Now is the time and THIS is what you've been waiting for."

It certainly doesn't happen that way for everyone. But praise the Lord when it does. And praise the Lord that He receives all the glory when He takes the heartache of a 'no' and replaces it with the sweet joy of a 'yes.'


Jess said...

I needed to read this today. I can feel in my heart there will be a day where God jumps up and down with Joy when he says "yes" and we get to experience parenthool. Until then, I am glad I have fellow bloggers that can keep my spirits lifted up in my times of wondering.

Thank you Stacy, your blog posts make me smile, cry, and think...sometimes all at the same time. Your Samuel is such an amazing little boy. And you are a great woman and mother. ♥

~Jenn~ said...

When I got my "yes, yes, yes" six months ago I couldn't do anything but say, "thank you, thank you, thank you" over and over again!

The years of waiting, anxious feelings, worry, and sadness were instantly replaced with His joy...and God was on the only one who could give us that joy.

In just about three months we will welcome our "Yes" and all of the waiting (and Dr. visits) was SO worth it!

You have been such an inspiration during that time...thank you!