Excerpt from Waiting on God by Cherie Hill:
It's in our most desperate, darkest hour that we cry out countless questions to God:
Why are you allowing this?
What is the purpose in this?
Are you there?
Do you care?
But you see, for all the questions we have for God, He has questions for us too . . . and as our heart pours out tears to heaven, the answer from God sometimes comes in the form of a question . . .
Where is your faith?
What we find as we ponder that question, is that our 'faith' has grown weary in the waiting. You pray, but God doesn't seem to be listening. You trust Him, but He appears to be letting you down. You believe His Word, but His promises are coming up seemingly empty in your life. You seek, but do not find . . . you knock, but no one is answering. If God is doing anything at all in your life . . . you can't see it. The faith intensifies, as it appears that not only is God running late . . . He may not even show up at all. By the looks of things, God's too busy with the rest of the world and He's not paying attention to your life at all. With each passing hour, your Spirit grows weary . . . in the "waiting."
My eyes are straining to see
Your Promises come true.
When will you comfort me?
(Psalm 199:82 NLT)
I am exhausted from crying for help;
my throat is parched.
My eyes are swollen with weeping,
waiting for my God to help me.
It's been said that the hardest part of faith is the last half hour. Waiting on God tests us like nothing else does. When we're experiencing overwhelming confusion, we can be certain that deliverance is just around the corner. The problem is that we give up just before God shows up.
We tend to yield when relief is almost in sight. In the darkness, we tend to give up just before the Light breaks through. Charles Spurgeon once said, "The wilderness is the way to the Canaan. Defeat prepares us for victory. The darkest hour of the night precedes the dawn." Remember that in your darkest hour . . . one way or another dawn is coming and there will be Light.
What we don't realize in our times of desperation is that if God is guiding our steps, if He's directing our lives, then He has allowed us to be brought into the very valley in which we cry out for mercy. The fact is, God has permitted the circumstances that have brought us to our knees, and He has done so with a plan and a purpose.
God has brought you to a place of helplessness and hopelessness, so that you will find that when you are in need . . . He is ALL you need. In whatever you're waiting for right now, it may appear that God is absent. But you must lay hold of God's Promises that assure you:
No ear heard, no eye seen,
a God like you who works
for those who wait for him.
(Isaiah 64:4 MSG)
God has not forgotten you . . . he has not abandoned you in your time of desperation. He often works best in your brokenness . . . a humble heart is more moldable in His hands. Stop worrying about the details . . . quit trying to figure it all out--God knows what He's doing. He's in control . . . even when life isn't. Trust that when your world seems to be falling apart . . . it's really just falling into place in the hands of your Almighty loving God. Trust. Wait. Rest. God's help is on the way.