Friday, April 19, 2013

We serve a God of surprises

God brought Ryan and I our first – and very biggest – surprise in October 2008: a baby boy. As you know, in just 5 hours we became parents to Samuel who has since taken over our hearts with his love, energy and big heart. We are crazy about this kid and can’t believe this year we will celebrate five years of life with him. What an honor. What a blessing. Our hearts are full of gratitude.

In January 2009 God brought us another surprise when we learned Samuel was going to be a big brother. We had tried and planned to get pregnant for more than three years. But we saw our plans erased when two pregnancies and years of waiting resulted in multiple miscarriages. When we least expected it – while we were in the midst of learning the ropes of parenthood – God sent us another surprise and today we call her Lauren. She has captured our hearts and we are madly in love with our sweet girl.

It is with a mixture of great joy and disbelief that I write to tell you that God has granted us a third surprise on our journey to parenthood. Although I have known about this for some time now, as I write these words tears fill my eyes because of the precious and unexpected miracle that is taking place within me. I can honestly say I didn’t ever think I would conceive again and yet I have. Our third child is expected to make his/her arrival on or around September 25.

My mom pointed out recently that all of our children have been surprises. In thinking about that, I realize she is absolutely right. The times when we have tried to control the growth of our family led us to frustration, disappointment and heartache as we waited on God and experienced the grief of multiple miscarriages.

It's only when God had our attention elsewhere, that He saw fit to send us our surprises. That's not everyone's story, but it's ours.

Many friends have asked how I feel about this surprise. Ryan and I knew we wanted a third child, we just didn’t care if he/she was biological or adopted. So my overwhelming response is that I feel incredibly privileged to have this opportunity. I have had one ultrasound that immediately put to rest my concerns about miscarrying. I saw the very tiny flutter of a heartbeat and was reminded again that God is the author and perfector and creator of life. Life does not begin outside the womb – it begins at the moment of conception. Our baby at just six weeks was already growing and developing the heart that he/she will have for the rest of his/her life. And I pray that this little heart would one day come to know and love Jesus.

While I feel incredibly privileged to experience the miracle of pregnancy again, my heart hurts and aches for those of you who read these words and it causes you pain. Because I know. I have been there. I clearly remember when pregnancy announcements put me in tears. I am under no illusions that some of you will not feel that same pain and I understand. And I want you to know that it’s OK. As you wait on God – for a baby or whatever else your heart desires – may you find the God of perfect timing dries your tears and holds you closely as you place your hope in Him.  

I will not be posting pictures of the baby’s nursery or writing daily updates on the pregnancy. That’s not the purpose of this blog nor is it where my heart is. I will continue to write about God’s timing, God’s endless and overwhelming grace in my life and all that He is teaching me through this journey of life. Our family is embarking on a new chapter. It’s filled with anticipation, excitement and, yes, a bit of anxiety about the future as well. But our God is a provider, protector and sustainer.

And He is, most definitely, a God of surprises.


JellyBelly said...

God is so good! Congratulations and thank you for being so sensitive to those of us that are still waiting :)

Kim said...

What an amazing surprise! Congratulations, so very exciting!

Chanda said...

Yay, May Family! We are thrilled for you guys! We are also expecting #3, just a few days after you guys! Fun!

Team Harries said...

Congrats! God is good! Thanks for sharing your joy with us!

KB said...

What wonderful news so wonderfully expressed. I remember those sad times with you. Surprises can be some of the best things!! Love you friend!

Deb said...

This warms my heart!!! As a women who has been trying for baby #2 for over 3 years this brings me hope that miracles can and do happen! God bless you!

Colleen Buchanan said...

I am so very Happy for you! Congratulations to all of you!!

SweetLittleSister said...

Congratulations. That was very well written. Somehow I knew as soon as Scott had number three, you'd be having a number three. Oh what great news!!! -Corrine

Jennifer said...

Wonderful post Stacy. I am so thrilled for you and your family. God is good!

Nancy Schuelke said...

Congratulations! Great work on sharing God's message and using your talents in this way!

cybil said...

Big congratulations and all God's mighty blessings for this pregnancy and the whole family!
How exciting!!!

~Jenn~ said...

I still check in from time to time and was SHOCKED to find this post...SO AMAZING!!!! I'm so happy for you and find comfort in your story that God is writing. AWESOME!!!

Anonymous said...

Yes, it causes a lot of pain. I think this is especially true when you are still (after many, many years) waiting for it to be your turn just once and watching him seem to bless the same people again and again.

Also, I have a hard time with the idea of God and his "perfect timing" because that makes it sound like the end result will be whatever it is that we are waiting (in oh so much pain) for. It doesn't always happen like that. Sometimes his answer is just plain no. I struggle with how his "perfect timing" applies then. I feel like at the end of this there will only continue to be pain. It is hard to be hopeful about that.

But, none of this is your fault and I do honestly congratulate you and your beautiful family on another blessing! Also, thank you for being so sensitive and kind to those of us that are, yes, in so much unbelievable pain.

Anonymous said...

I shouldn't have wrote that.

I am so very sorry.

It (the pain) catches me by surprise sometimes. Even still, I had no right to rant and rave like that. Please delete that comment.

Your blog has been such a treasure to so many of us. Thank you.

And, again--thank you for being so sensitive and kind hearted to those of us on the other side. It really is appreciated.